On BEcoming Through Maturing

On BEcoming Through Maturing

New hair – who’s this? Truly. I’m asking this question of myself. As I confront becoming an “older, more mature” woman whose staring at the last third (or end of the third quarter) of life, I want to know Her. Exploring what it means, what it looks like, to become a Wise Woman. For the last few years I’ve been looking up older women for inspiration: celebrities , public figures, women I personally know who emulate and embody what I’m looking for. What do they look like? What do they wear? How does grey hair look? What does it mean to soften? How do they emulate grace? Are they wrapped up in maintaining youth? Are they getting facelists? Botox? Fillers? Are any of those things aligned for me? Do I want to allow the maturing of my visage? Or do I strive against the process? And to what degree? Who is in integrity with the transformation of maturing? Of this I am clear – we get to choose how we want to grow with age. To me, that means embracing certain aspects of aging, and taking the best care of my beautiful body temple, possible. Hardcore workouts are a thing of the past. My body doesn’t want or deserve punishment. It wants and deserves my love. It prefers yoga, dance, stretching, hiking and walking. My body temple doesn’t want sugar anymore. It’s communicating it’s disdain for certain foods and environments. I’m listening. Making this change in my hair is an outer reflection of the inner growth I engage. Cutting off the old, damaged hair and letting my beautiful silver...
Evolutionary Burn

Evolutionary Burn

Hold on to your undies, my friends, cuz this ride is far from over! In fact, you may want to bring along a second, clean pair. 😳😬 I’m not a “doom and gloomer” I am grounded and realistic. As well as a deeply mystical metaphysician and student/practitioner of ancient esoteric wisdom. Therefore I offer you a look at one of the energetic perspectives I’m privy to, as it helps me understand the bigger, evolutionary perspective of events. Astrology is an ancient system that provides language, context and meaning for events and energy currents as we experience them on Earth. The planets are players – the Gods of Heaven – and illustrate that As Above, So Below. There are MAJOR correlations between what happens in our personal lives and the World stage and the movement of the planets. Think of how different personalities relate in communities, but in this case they all think they’re God. (You get the idea – Drama, a hero’s journey, cycles….) I want to share just some of the astrological aspects we’re encountering so you can see how they are affecting our country. And, so you can adjust these themes to see how they may fit into your own life. Yesterday, Eris – goddess of discord and sister to Mars – went direct. She’s the goddess who shit-stirred up the events leading to the Trojan War. There’s a New Moon in Capricorn at midnight EST on January 13 featuring the Sun conjunct Pluto. Pluto is god of death and the underworld. It lives and thrives in the shadows, unearthing all the things we may not want...
Inner Authority

Inner Authority

Speaking my truth is a practice in integrity. It’s part of how I transmit energy and understanding born of intense study, practice, and life experience. While I was born with a renegade spirit, rebellious to the core, questioning, fiercely independent, I fought hard to claim my Inner Authority. Outer authority (to my rebel soul) is something to be questioned, confronted, held to account, and railed against when it’s not born of Service, true justice, or when it doesn’t make sense in a feeling, embodied way. Those times when something just feels :off:. Over time and with great dedication to growth and self-knowledge, I’ve learned and experienced many things that have moved from “intelligent, head knowledge” to full-blown, embodied, deeply anchored truth. At times I find that my truths align with the Truth. Especially when lived and breathed repeatedly. There are (more and more often, lately) many times when my personal, subjective truth aligns with objective, universal Truth. And, I’m all for lining up with what is True and speaking to it, honoring it, sharing it, ANCHORING it. During this era we are living, what is Truth versus what is true, are constantly in question. In some ways I see this as a time of revelation- not in the biblical sense – but in the ways that we are all learning to become adept at discernment and our own analysis. It’s ultimately the search for deeper meaning and the crucial use of our critical thinking faculties. We are coming into our own belief systems, forming those structures, dismantling what’s not aligned or ill-informed. I suspect we will be in this...
The Feminine Wound

The Feminine Wound

I clearly recall growing up and attending public school with an open heart. I also clearly remember the feeling of being ostracized, judged and condemned by my female peers. This during the utterly difficult and confusing time of adolescence. (Add to that family dysfunction writ large.) That time was hurtful and caused me a great deal of pain. I never understood why girls behaved that way, or what prompted such ugliness. I wanted to be friends, to be liked. And, I’m loyal to a fault. There’s a cliché about girls being catty towards one another and competitive. Many clichés exist because they are true. As I grew older and left the era of public school I found true friendships and sisterhood with other women. Many of which are not just intact to this day, but are thriving, nurturing, uplifting, supportive relationships. One of my most profound experiences of sisterhood came as I worked for a short time as an exotic dancer. We were all loving and supportive of one another. Protective even. Each time a dancer would take the stage there was a recognition that sounded like “There’s _________, so beautiful, unique, doing her gorgeous, mesmerizing dance moves. My friend and ally.” And, that was certainly the case. We had to stick together and look after each other. I’ve always been the kind of person, the kind of woman who loves other women. I celebrate them, befriend them, offer my best. There’s a strange awareness that has pervaded many encounters with other women along the way, one of intimidation. I have rarely felt intimidated. Rather, they were intimidated by...
Scorpio Season

Scorpio Season

Q: What did you do the other night? Me: I was in the woods burning stuff with all the other witches. (DUH) But truly, this is the time of year when we honor the dead, pay homage to our ancestors, and let go of our attachments to things that no longer serve us. Blah, blah, blah, right? Heard it all before… Rather cliche at this point. Yes. But, it’s the time of Scorpio. Let’s take this deeper. Much deeper. Acknowledging Death is one of the most important things we can ever do. Death is an absolute. It’s a capital T Truth. Without Death, life has less meaning. Without Death and decay, this 3-D timespace continuum would be utter chaos. It would also be claustrophobic AF. Society fears Death because it’s become so sterile and has been removed from our day to day existence. We run from it instead of facing it head-on. (Ever notice how those facing death who’ve come to accept it without fear have the most peaceful continence and epitomize Grace?) chew on that a bit. Acknowledging Those Who Have Gone Before – the ancestors – keeps us humble, and tethers us to lineage. We come to understand that we are connected to everything and everyone. Our ancestors fought, strived, loved, endured, learned and evolved so that we could be here now, continuing the Cycle of Life. Their good works carry forward to ours. This is legacy. The thing is, American/Western culture isn’t good at making room for lineage or holding sacred space for the stories and customs of ancestors. We’ve lost our sense of Mythos, and...
What it means to THRIVE

What it means to THRIVE

I coined a word years ago. It’s my own thing/idea about how I live. I shared it with someone last night for the first time and it was received enthusiastically, and encouraged to share it with others. Thrival. Thrive+ al This is what happens when we/I go BEYOND survival. I know many people feel like they’re just getting by right now. They’re surviving. Or they have survived some truly difficult things in life. Trauma, abuse, assault, ruin, loss, hardship, health issues, etc. We all have had to overcome situations and difficulties in life. I’ve absolutely had my share. Some of the most painful for me happened young. One example is that I was kicked out at the age of 16. I’ve been “on my own” ever since. Here’s where Thrival comes in: When faced with difficult circumstances and the crucible they provide, I have found ways to come out on top. Those things have made me who I am. A Thrivalist. I didn’t just “survive.” I freaking worked through, found the lessons, dug deep AF, confronted my $hit, and ROSE like a muthereffing PHOENIX. Each time was an opportunity to grow and go beyond what I thought possible, reach beyond my expectations of myself, and gain more out of life. And my life is extraordinary. I’ve come to see that when it’s get tough, things fall apart, $hit hits the fan, and problems occur, they happen for important reasons. Those things are often opportunities to RISE and grow, heal and move on. Die to what is or was. And be reborn to a new vision/version. Thrive is one of...
My Personal Manifesto

My Personal Manifesto

In 2014 I wrote something of a manifesto. Reading through it again today I find it still fits in many ways. Have you ever written something like this? . . . As your friend I want what is best for you, and for you to be happy and healthy in all ways. Always. As your Priestess know that I am at ease with being your catalyst – wherever that may lead. Hopefully to your highest self and best good. May I propel you towards your deepest desire and innermost dreams – however difficult they may be to attain. May I invoke in you an unending need to delve, to know, to change & grow, to soar – towards attainment and to feel every feeling and embrace each process along the way. I will help you to be more present in your choices and in the moments that truly count – Not checked out through drugs, alcohol, sugar, food, sex…. Or anything else. I will call you out from all those places where you hide from life, from yourself, from Truth. And I will show you the mirror so that you may gaze upon that which you need to see. As your lover I am at ease with the outcome. Even if that means you are no longer part of my life. I give gratitude for your presence in my life and to you for showing me more of what I want and do not want in my life and relationships. For you are a catalyst as well. My God and my Priest. You show me the way to my...
Self Care During Intensity

Self Care During Intensity

So many people are struggling and asking what they can do to help with this intense AF energy and facilitate their heart-expansion. As you read through my recommendations, note how much of this is simply doing what’s real and true, as well as how many times I’ve repeated the same advice over the years. This is not necessarily new information. It’s being echoed in order to be reinforced. Most of these things are integral to living a healthy, spiritual life. These suggestions are also useful in finding balance and bringing you back to/towards center when things are “off.” In no particular order… Meditate. This is a key that unlocks your potential. This is especially how you tune in to your inner wisdom. If you’re not already doing this regularly, now is a great time to begin. Rest. Get outside and relish in fresh air, sunshine, and the beauty of nature. Hug a tree. Lay on the ground. Look up at the sky. Move your body. Seriously, this is part of how we move stagnant energy. I’m not telling you to punish your body at the gym. I’m telling you that walking, hiking, dancing, yoga, love-making, etc., are joyful ways to move and crucial to overall health on absolutely every level of your BEing. Eat healthy, real foods – fruits, veggies, protein. Drink lots of water. And some herbal tea. Nettle is great right now. Get some Greens in your body. Things like kale, spinach, algae, chlorophyll, etc., will help your body integrate the new energy that’s downloading. These things raise your vibration. Sing, drum, scream, howl…. also ways to...