Inner Authority

Inner Authority

Speaking my truth is a practice in integrity. It’s part of how I transmit energy and understanding born of intense study, practice, and life experience. While I was born with a renegade spirit, rebellious to the core, questioning, fiercely independent, I fought hard to claim my Inner Authority. Outer authority (to my rebel soul) is something to be questioned, confronted, held to account, and railed against when it’s not born of Service, true justice, or when it doesn’t make sense in a feeling, embodied way. Those times when something just feels :off:. Over time and with great dedication to growth and self-knowledge, I’ve learned and experienced many things that have moved from “intelligent, head knowledge” to full-blown, embodied, deeply anchored truth. At times I find that my truths align with the Truth. Especially when lived and breathed repeatedly. There are (more and more often, lately) many times when my personal, subjective truth aligns with objective, universal Truth. And, I’m all for lining up with what is True and speaking to it, honoring it, sharing it, ANCHORING it. During this era we are living, what is Truth versus what is true, are constantly in question. In some ways I see this as a time of revelation- not in the biblical sense – but in the ways that we are all learning to become adept at discernment and our own analysis. It’s ultimately the search for deeper meaning and the crucial use of our critical thinking faculties. We are coming into our own belief systems, forming those structures, dismantling what’s not aligned or ill-informed. I suspect we will be in this...
The Feminine Wound

The Feminine Wound

I clearly recall growing up and attending public school with an open heart. I also clearly remember the feeling of being ostracized, judged and condemned by my female peers. This during the utterly difficult and confusing time of adolescence. (Add to that family dysfunction writ large.) That time was hurtful and caused me a great deal of pain. I never understood why girls behaved that way, or what prompted such ugliness. I wanted to be friends, to be liked. And, I’m loyal to a fault. There’s a cliché about girls being catty towards one another and competitive. Many clichés exist because they are true. As I grew older and left the era of public school I found true friendships and sisterhood with other women. Many of which are not just intact to this day, but are thriving, nurturing, uplifting, supportive relationships. One of my most profound experiences of sisterhood came as I worked for a short time as an exotic dancer. We were all loving and supportive of one another. Protective even. Each time a dancer would take the stage there was a recognition that sounded like “There’s _________, so beautiful, unique, doing her gorgeous, mesmerizing dance moves. My friend and ally.” And, that was certainly the case. We had to stick together and look after each other. I’ve always been the kind of person, the kind of woman who loves other women. I celebrate them, befriend them, offer my best. There’s a strange awareness that has pervaded many encounters with other women along the way, one of intimidation. I have rarely felt intimidated. Rather, they were intimidated by...
My Personal Manifesto

My Personal Manifesto

In 2014 I wrote something of a manifesto. Reading through it again today I find it still fits in many ways. Have you ever written something like this? . . . As your friend I want what is best for you, and for you to be happy and healthy in all ways. Always. As your Priestess know that I am at ease with being your catalyst – wherever that may lead. Hopefully to your highest self and best good. May I propel you towards your deepest desire and innermost dreams – however difficult they may be to attain. May I invoke in you an unending need to delve, to know, to change & grow, to soar – towards attainment and to feel every feeling and embrace each process along the way. I will help you to be more present in your choices and in the moments that truly count – Not checked out through drugs, alcohol, sugar, food, sex…. Or anything else. I will call you out from all those places where you hide from life, from yourself, from Truth. And I will show you the mirror so that you may gaze upon that which you need to see. As your lover I am at ease with the outcome. Even if that means you are no longer part of my life. I give gratitude for your presence in my life and to you for showing me more of what I want and do not want in my life and relationships. For you are a catalyst as well. My God and my Priest. You show me the way to my...
Heart Connection

Heart Connection

The people who are destined to meet and come together to hold the planet in a container of Love, Truth, and Healing, are meeting up. It’s a time of connection, and of deepening the intimacy in your current relationships of all kinds. Especially intimacy in the relationship to yourself. Heart-opening and activation are flooding the third dimension from the cosmos. This flooding is also flushing out many old programs and can feel confusing. Bear with it, as things settle, the clarity starts to set in. There are many circumstances where you may think you have the answer, or figured something out. Then – in a moment – EVERYTHING shifts. And you find yourself somewhere altogether different. It’s intense. And beautiful. It’s an incredibly POWERFUL time. Pay attention to who, where, and how people and situations are showing up in your life. Check-in and ask yourself some questions: How did this person/these people/this situation enter my life – what was the framework? Why did we meet now? What are we here to do? How does this feel in my body? Is this something I truly want? Or is this to show me what I do not want? How did my thinking and intentions bring this into being? Do I feel/think/know differently now? If I’m honest with myself, does this (person, place, situation) really align with my highest integrity? Why? Why not? How can I live in the fullest integrity possible at this time? Is it time to act? Or time to sit and *listen*? Do I have all the answers I need? Am I clear? Does this feel like Yes?...